Moving in and
out of Duality?
Is it possible to move in and out of Duality?
Is it possible to experience Oneness in a moment and later
experience Duality and go back to being just a person in a dualistic world
again?
This question has been raised to me a couple of times. Also I
have been observing people stating that they sometimes are in Oneness and
than later they loose their awareness or their presence of the Now and then
they are back in Duality. Then it is also stated that by being more
attentive or meditating more they seem to lengthen that experience. Of
course this seems to require practice and discipline.
These “experiences” are based on
misperception
of the nature of oneness. If there is the experience of moving in and out of
duality then there is still the belief
or perception
that there is a separate person who would be capable of moving in and out.
Oneness is always. Oneness may appear as a person, as a wall, a chair, an
angry thought or a feeling of joy, but it is all oneness. Oneness is all
there is. The experience of moving in and out of duality is a sign that
there is still a belief
in
separation left
Sometimes
people who have had a seemingly significant awakening experience and have
tasted the experience of “Oneness”,
believe that there has been a cause that has created the effect of being in
Oneness.
They
may
go on and become gurus or teachers teaching people the method through which
they
themself
can move into Oneness/Now (usually some form of meditation, self-inquiry
etc.). If a well defined method is combined with good looks or a charming
personality this
may
lead to a good amount of income from seekers
for the "Liberated Person".
I can relate to that “experience” and to these “descriptions” since this was
how it appeared to me as well. An awakening experience is usually a very
blissful state, no person seems to be there, no personal motivation, no thinking goes on. It can take days, weeks or
even months until this blissful state, this feeling of being one is
slowly
fading away. After this awakening experience which usually is such a radical
change compared to the state of mind before and which is breaking down the
walls of an “old life”, there is
often
still some shred of an individual left.
It was so for me.
There is still a personal motivation left to own this
experience and make it stable. Meditation methods are then tried out,
hundreds
of books are read, Satsangs are being attended, discussion forums
are being participated in, a concept is being formed on how this could be
achieved. All theses actions are happening with the hope of coming back to
this blissful state and staying there forever
All this “personal” effort however is putting only energy in
to “personal” activity and into the belief in a doer who -through practice,
effort and discipline- may achieve to get rid of himself.
If however it is
finaly
seen that this is totally futile, totally hopeless and
if it is also seen that,
that which tries to
own oneness is oneness itself, it is finished.
All seeking by using a practice or by using the opposite of
a
no-practice falls
away.
It is seen that all there is, is this. All there is, is
Oneness. And it is seen that this was always the case. It was always so. The
whole personal story is either forgotten completely or seen as a play of
light of oneness.
In truth nothing happened.
Oneness played the game of believing to be an individual and
then ended the game. |