What are you looking for?
What is it?
Is it Happiness, Paradise, Living in Peace, Stillness, Enlightenment,
Being in the Now, Liberation, Total Freedom, Samadhi, Satori, Kensho or
Non-Dual Living?
Isn’t that a beautiful shopping list of things of which you actually have
no idea what they look like? The seeker is looking for something of which
-if he is truthful to himself- has a blurred, mystified and idealized
picture. This image is pieced together from books, statements of so called
enlightened sages and assumptions. He is looking for some grand state where
there is no pain, no suffering, no quarrels, no doubt and no fear.
It is supposed to be the big lottery winning, the constant blissful state.
And by the way, the confusion about what one is looking for, does not get
any better by using foreign “mysterious” names like Samadhi or Satori. Well
it just sounds more sophisticated and makes one feel more advanced than the
poor sucker on the street who is still “just” looking for lesser things like:
more money, a better career or a loving relationship.
But all seeking is actually arising from the same source.
It is the feeling of being not at home, the feeling of being separated.
It is all the same.
What it boils down to is: that the seeker is searching for a better state.
A state of which he believes is not happening right now.
It is going to come. It will be achieved. It is almost there.
It is all bullshit.
Now the first message is:
You can not find enlightenment.
Very simply because of the fact that enlightenment is all there is.
It can not be found, because it was never lost. It is always.
Now the second message is:
You can not find enlightenment,
because there is no individual “You”
separate from it. You are it. It is all there is.
Now the third message is:
You can not find enlightenment.
There is no method of any kind (self-inquiry, meditation etc.) that will
help you achieve it. No satsangs, no meetings with nice guys like Sailor
Bob, Tony Parsons etc. will help achieve enlightenment. This is so,
because there is neither something which could be achieved nor someone who
could achieve something.
No person has ever become enlightened.
It is hopeless.
The end
The only thing that can happen is, that the search for enlightenment or a
better state will come to an end. But this will neither be done by anyone
nor will it be achieved by any activity. It may simply just come to an end, when it is seen that this is all there
is.
And there is neither something we can do to avoid, nor anything
we can
do to make it happen. Again: Because there is no-one there to do it.
The only thing that may happen in meetings or discussions with so called
sages is that a lot of the conceptual ideas on enlightenment can be
destroyed.
But the search can only end by itself. Some argue therefore, that
self-inquiry is an impersonal activity that is not done by anyone and that
therefore this impersonal method or impersonal activity will bring about the
end of the search.
If that is really meant in the way I see it then there is nothing which
would not be that self-inquiry from scratching your rear-end to drinking a
glass of vodka or taking a leak.
Then all there is, is self-inquiry done by no-one.
So there is no need to ask oneself: “Who am I” until it comes out of the
ears. Because every ray of sunlight that touches the skin, every sound that
is heard, every sight that is seen, is that question.
And at the same time it is also the answer.
It will be asked and answered until the search ends.
Then that is seen what always was there, but was overlooked by seeking
for it:
Home, Paradise, Peace